Change of plan I met my sister in law and we went shopping then more lunch then I did my food shop so no gym today, bad Kim. I have been eating well though. $ days with no drink and I have a big bottle of vodka in the kitchen. I also think I know where we might go for our second wedding, I am thinking Cyprus as it will be nice still that time of year plus its not too long a flight for the children. They will be 8 and nearly 7 when we go. I would like the Maldives but Clemi has just come back and it was a 12 hour flight. Which I cant imagine would be fun. I am going to ask my mum if she will have them for a week, though I don't think she would as her tea room is still open in October and she is the only one I would trust with them for a week. We are going to go for an all inclusive hotel and have the ceremony on the beach. One of Shaun's friends asked last night if he could come too. I really like him so that would be cool, he was at our first wedding too. Clemi will also be there, she was my bridesmaid the first time. I cant believe how close we are to being married for a whole decade.

Diane my step mum is in hospital, the cancer has spread they don't know if they can operate yet. She is only 46 how the fuck can this be happening. Its time I said something to the kids I think.

Happy new year to anyone still reading.

I had the most amazing Xmas, we went to my mums and chilled out in the country. we then went for lots of walks with the dogs and I made large amounts of mulled wine. New years eve was good too. We went to Clemi's and played vodka jelly poker again, then vodka jelly jenga, then vodka jelly don't wake dad.

Clemi has a new boyfriend, well it been 6 months. He is 42 and they are madly in love. Its so odd seeing Clemi like this, she giggles and blushed, I have known her 15 years and never seen her like this. he is married but has left his wife, they had been married for 20 years.

I have just been reading about John Travolt's son. I hate him but OMG no one should have to bury their child.

My period is 3 days late, but I am 100% sure I'm not pregnant. I feel like I am about to get my period, I am bloated, I hate 100000000000 spots and am moody as hell. I wish my period would hurry up.

As I have only had one comment since I started re posting I'm guessing a lot of you don't want to be on here that's fine, just say and I will remove.

This doesn't count for the people I have just added.

I sill really want a baby. But I worry if I can cope. Also how do you fit 3 car seats in a car? How do I convince Shaun that he wants one too? also maybe I should not post while drunk.

Just a quick note to say i have no inter net access at home right now so wont be about.

MSN messenger wont work on my pc keeps making it crash. I have tried using trillian but I cant use web cam on it with out paying what else is there out there?